Through Tears

I don't know if this happens to others or not, but it's happening to me for the third time. It happens when they are about three or four weeks old. They start smiling. Not just when they are sleeping or when they release some gas pressure or when their little cheek muscles decide to exercise their smiling abilities. It's when they start smiling because they see you. They go from aimlessly staring at the light streaming in from the window or the ceiling fan to focusing in on my face. My smile. My voice. And then...they break out into the most amazing grin. A grin for me. A grin of recognition. They see a smiling face- their mommy's face- and they smile back.

I am in the midst of Miriam's first week of this intentional smiling and thus, I am in heaven. When she smiles at me, I cannot help but get teary-eyed. This is frustrating because then I have to look at her first smiles through tears- it's harder to see to through tears and I don't want to miss a single one. I cried when my other two children started smiling at me, too. And don't get me started on the cooing. Miriam has started cooing as well and I can hardly stand it. I melt. I dissolve into awe and love and I forget the world and try my hardest to coax yet another little sound out of her little mouth.

I know. I'm sappy when it comes to my babies. This is just how I am. I will always remember gazing into my children's eyes through tears and soaking in their first grins and noises. These days I will never get back and therefore I want to never forget. Pin It